my new favorite song-
VANESSA CARLTON

"A Thousand Miles"

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight
It's so beautiful... aint it?

 
michelle kwan... sigh. im so bummed. i really am ... strange huh? i was so nervous we she performed and it was nerve-wrecking. sigh... well she's a champion to me and she don't need that gold medal to be a champion to millions around the world... wow.. didnt think i'd feel so strongly about figure skating. =T well.. i love you michelle kwan!!! you're dope...

 
how the hell does this thing get my life so on the dot??? wow...
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You appreciate the better things of life ... and you don't particularly want to strive in order to achieve them ... What a pity you were not born into the Gentry .... with servants, etc.. Unfortunately - life is not like that .... You have the ability to be whatever it is that you would like to be, but you must make the effort
not so sure about this one

You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence..
maybe???

You need a friend - a close friend ... and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance .. and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be some-what argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict since this might reduce your chances of prospects of realising your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.
yeah... it explains everything right now. im lucky to have friends like dave and ian... and bob... i love you guys... this is so true right now though. i fighting all these feelings inside and trying to deal with my "friendship"... argh.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration ....and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail... You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall - getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards ... and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.
anyone that's talked to me within a couple of days knows that i've been talking about going away... about wanting to escape... about being stressed out and frustrated.... sigh

You are worn out and lack both physical and mental energy. This lack of vitality has created an intolerance for any further excitement and you feel that you just carry on .. but you have been like that many times before and the situation passed.. You again need to get away from it all.... even if it is only for a little while. A relaxed body cannot contain a destructive emotion ... and the secret for you is to just relax ...
yeah once again... the whole overwhelmed thing...

how does this colorgenics thing do this??? im just randomly picking colors! great thing though...

 
wow... this is amazing. it's SOOO on the dot right now. crazy madness. check it out.


You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others...and it is this need that sometimes will hold you back ... so let go - trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens ...

You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything .... but be careful not to take too many risks.

The present situation, not of your making, is forcing you to compromise. You will have to hold back and forgo some of your hopes, dreams and aspirations...

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress .. and this is a result of continuous frustration ... You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs... and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate ... someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different .... to be individualistic ... to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely.... but this, being on your own, this being lonely ..often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire..

 
alright so im stuck in the computer lab on a friday afternoon. this bites... i hate this class. i just dont get it and it's supposed to be an INTRO to another intro class. (in other words, it's dumbed down for us) i was seriously considering dropping this class about an hour ago. but i guess i'll stick it through. it's already almost 6th week right? screw this...

life is confusing. love is even more confusing... im just so tired of everything, i need an escape. help.

 
havent blogged in ages.. i just want to complain. school, work, mentoring, apsa, talent show, jeremy, fatigue, exhaustion... im tired. no time there's not enough time.. i just want to stop thinking... no more thinking. just want to sleep. hehe... alright that's enough for now. maybe if i get enough money to fix my COMPUTERSSSSS i'll blog more... im in computer/internet withdrawal. sigh...