there is something about "the sound of music" that is soothing to the nerves. it's on tv right now and hey i'd much rather watch this than do anything else right now. i fell asleep through my icam review session that i just found out wasn't too interesting NOR informing (like everything else that involves this icam class) so i guess i better spent my time taking a nap. anyhoo, i was flipping through the channels and i came across "the sound of music".. it's a beautiful movie. the songs and everything. =)

alright so finals are coming in at full force. it's all coming faster and faster. today's the last day of classes and that means that it's all up to me and my books now. argh! i still have no clue about what im going to write for my children's lit paper. and yeah, i just want the time to skip this next week and wake up and have it be dec 8th. sigh. until then, i will complain and be stressed. i will lose tons of sleep and just be not fun to be around overall. =T but just think, after this it'll be all over with! and then a month of fun fun fun... yay! it's tough cuz i keep thinking about christmas and buying gifts... when i should be thinking about psyc and hdp. =T

hope that all of you are toughing through these "hell weeks"... julie andrews is singing, "i have confidence in confidence alone!" .. for me, doesn't sound too familiar. at least not right now. =T hehe.. here's a fast and smooth week... *hugs*

 
so my wonderful weekend is slowly coming to an end... time to buckle down and start studying right? argh i got a journal due on tuesday and a paper due next tuesday... then it's finals finals finals. finals is a wierd time for me, i get real stressed and im usually sick. lets hope i dont get sick THIS time (knock on wood). went shopping this weekend. it was bomb... crazy madness everywhere, but still fun to shop during sales and stuff. =) im off to church and i get to see my mentees tomorrow. yay. =) i hope you all are ready for finals... and im sure we all are in our own ways. wink wink. heehee. happy holidays.

oh yeah one more thing... ate out at olive garden today with the family. =) it's my fave restaurant. yummy. but yeah there was this guy working there that my sister and i were jocking. it was kinda funny... =) he wasn't HOT or anything like brad pitt, but he had beautiful eyes. =) haha.. okay FOCUS jasmine... boys boys boys.. sigh.

 
im having a blast at home for thanksgiving. i can't wait til christmas break and i can just relax totally and not have this lingering fear of finals in a couple of weeks. ... i have so much shit to do it's crazy. and im just putting it all off too. procrastination queen here! but yeah thanksgiving was bomb. i drove home early yesterday morning thinking that there wouldnt be traffic. boy was i wrong! there was tons of traffic and it took me about 2 hours to get to san clemente... which usually takes me about 1/2 hour to get to. madness on the freeway i tell yah. but yeah i got to LA about 2pm and then my cousins (tiffany and alexandria) and my sis and bro and I went to go watch Monsters, Inc. and that was bomb... it was my second time watching it and i loved it even more. =) it's one of the best movies of the year, at least in my eyes... that was fun and then we all came home to eat our huge thanksgiving FEAST of turkey, prime rib .. potatoes and all that GOOD STUFF! just thinking about it makes me full.

brad pitt was on Friends last night. it was SO hilarious! he's such a beautiful beautiful man... god he is sexy. it was just cool to see him and Jennifer Anistron together because you could see their chemistry.. and he was so mean to her, it was hilarious. definitely one of the best Friends episodes ever (and that's tough because all of them are so funny) i was laughing throughout the whole episode. too bad i didnt tape it huh? darn ...

so let's see... i had another fun packed day today. it was madness outside at the malls. i never realized that people REALLY shop during the after thanksgiving day sales... but yeah i love how everyone shops. i hate that it takes forever to find parking and people are kinda pushy but yeah, its fun.. =) and this year i can get my family some great gifts since i have a job now... yay! i love christmas time... all the beautiful music and cool decorations. it was wonderful time .. and i absolutely love it. plus, i get to wear scarves and gloves too... all that cozy stuff.

the night before thanksgiving my apt and i had our own thanksgiving eve dinner ... it was beautiful and the food was great.. there were candles and christmas music. =) awesome...

i can't believe that i have to start studying like RIGHT NOW... sucks. alright time to watch Friends.. happy holidays everyone!

 
high school conference on saturday was bomb. great job everyone, esp steph and janet! it was super tiring but still fun and exciting at the same time. =) yay for hsc.

had a relaxing sunday. didnt do much but sleep in all day... all day long. and today, spent some time with my kids again. =) yay.

alright i have a headache. peace

 
such a great weekend huh? 3 whole days to do nothing. so exciting to me =) it's awesome. i'll miss hanging out with my mentees tomorrow though. but yeah i'll see them next week. =)

so yeah went to north county fair and barnes and noble last night after a great dinner at islands with jeremy. it was fun. it gets so dark so early now though... but yeah bought some more books again. i know, i spend way too much money on books, but hey they make me happy. =) haha.. shopping always makes a girl happy. plus, barnes and noble is like the best place to go! for me anyway.

still feeling distant and i dont know.. i really can't describe what i'm feeling. i dont know why im avoiding talking to God because sometimes I think that I don't deserve God's love just because I'm so bad sometimes and i know i'm not always following His Will. I dont know... i'm gonna head off to church soon and maybe then i'll find some peace of mind. my sister's in the midst of applying to colleges and im hoping that she'll go to ucsd. just cuz we could live together then... she's like the only person that i could totally 100% comfortably live with. i dont know.. we've lived together all our lives and plus it'd be fun to live together. we could share clothes again. =) haha.. and i miss being away from my family sometimes.. it'd be nice to have my sister around. she's someone i feel at home with... and i just feel so out of place with everyone and everything right now. y'know? like i feel like i dont really have any true friends anymore... well i have friends but yeah, the only person i talk to on a consistent basis is jeremy. and i dont keep in touch a lot with my best friend even though he's at ucsd with me.. i dont keep in touch with my homegirls from high school... only occassionally.. and with my friends here, it's not like i hang out with them often. or that i talk to them outside of an apsa setting either. i dont know... i guess i'm not as social as i think i am. i just want to shut everything and everyone out for awhile. guess i'll have to wait until christmas break... maybe that's why i like being with kids so much, cuz they think im special and cool no matter what. =) and because the love i have for them is reciprocated. i think that's my main reason for wanting a dog so much lately. i just want someone who would love me unconditionally... and I know God loves me unconditionally, but i guess it's still hard to swallow. i just feel alone. and maybe i want to be alone. i have no clue... this whole stupid monthly pms thing really messes me up. gosh i hate it. =T i can't control my already hard to control emotions... blah!!! i think im just gonna go read or something... clean my constantly dirty room. =T

 
alright so someone hacked my bbmahal637 blogs and i can't get into it. i'm really sad because i have 7 months worth of stuff on it and yeah that takes time to accumulate but o'wells... i dont know what to do. i tried emailing them but they probably could care less. sigh.. anyone know how to like re-hack into my own account??? please?

well, so yeah i'm here starting a new one. a bigger and better one.

so yeah lots of things going on lately, from school and tons of midterms/projects/papers... to just usual personal stuff. yeah.. i just feel very distant from everything. and i really just want to be alone. i do. i dont know... so yeah. here's a great 3 day weekend full of sleep and rest!

a song im diggin'... =)

"Caramel" by:City High

You can say I'm plain Jane, but it's not the same
I ain't in to big names, but I like nice things
I watch boxing matches and uh football games
I wouldn't mind being an actress, but I love to sing
I like going out, talking walks and stuff
I don't round that many girls cause they talk too much
I enjoy quiet nights at home cause I'm next to ya
Though I'm ain't a virgin that don't mean I'm having sex with ya

Anywhere I go I spot it
And anything I want I got it
5'5 with brown eyes
Smile like the sunrise

Anywhere I go I spot it
And anything I want I got it
5'5 with brown eyes
Smile like the sunrise

Baby look me in the eyes
And tell me ya
I'm the kinda girl you like
I'm feeling you
Cause sweetie you're my kinda guy
Thinking about you and I
I wanna run with this
All night long
And if you want me we can keep this going
Let me tell you I'm the type that's strong
And I don't trust a lot of men I'm independent I'm ain't like some other woman

Anywhere I go I spot it
And anything I want I got it
5'5 with brown eyes
Smile like the sunrise

Anywhere I go I spot it
And anything I want I got it
5'5 with brown eyes
Smile like the sunrise

And I keep and I keep my mind
Baby girl don't you know you're a star
We could take a little trip to mi casa
Spend the night popping cris in the hot tub
See I ain't never seen no girl like you
Every sexy little thing you do
5'5' brown eyes with your thick thighs
Every time I see your smile its got me hypnotized